I've been on and off of this blogging thing ever since I got started. I would mostly have down times instead of being consistent. I'd always go back only whenever I feel the need to set out some important thoughts that I've gathered in the past minutes/hours/days/months.

RANDOM THOUGHTS:

Trusting is now an issue for me. Whenever someone tells me about a betrayal situation, I'd always be the first one to blurt out that 'you never know who you can trust." I've been hearing myself say that more often these days. Before, I'd say that man is ultimately good. I still believe it. But now, I can't say it out loud. I can only say it in my mind, without as much conviction as before. I think, now, to me, everyone has a hidden agenda.

I've stopped my diet for the last 3-4 weeks. I started to slack off in the first 2 weeks, and declared my last 2 weeks as a diet break. I have a wedding to attend on the first week of December, and here I am, eating my chicken macaroni salad for breakfast, along with a big bag of sour cream and onion cheese curlz. Talk about making up for lost time. I've lost the drive. I need to be motivated. How?

As of now, I'm settled with what I am doing at work: taking responsibility that I'm not getting paid for. I realized that this has given me more life than anything else that I've been doing for the past 3 months. Yes, it does suck. But I need a f*cking challenge. Training classes just doesn't cut it anymore. I wish there was something else that would make me feel more alive. Like maybe a love life?

But I don't think I'm ready to handle it. Yet. I don't know. Surprise me, Life.